kids shows (back in the day) part 1

Just as Steven Gerrard, Anfield and The Kop is to Liverpool, or even Highbury and Arsene is to Arsenal, tv shows have by far blended into our lives quite nicely just as we were kids. Every Saturday morning or even Sunday morning after church there has to be a tv show or even animated series that seems so real in our lives; especially when we were much younger. Let's take a look at some of these television shows, cartoon series, manga and what not.

First and foremost, who could forget Pokemon and perhaps the face of this Japanese cartoon, almost goes hand in hand to it; the yellow rodent called Pikachu. Over the years, spin offs of animated series and games ranging from the Game Boy handheld all the way to the Nintedo DS which is hot and popular currently. However, no Pokemon series seems to be complete without its main character, Pikachu. It just doesn't feel right. :P

Next as we roll back the years, we see another spin off that was not as popular as Pokemon but popular amongst children as well. We have Digimon. Who could forget these digital monsters that could "Digivolve" anytime they want. Sure there have been a few games based on the series but I don't think it's as popular as Pokemon.

Next on the list is none other than Power Rangers. The story line feels so cliche. Redundant, I don't mind adding. Yet, theres about 10 different seasons in total; (Maybe more) ranging from Power Rangers time, Lost in space and Mystic Force. All of the series have one thing in common. Some bad guy wants to destroy the world, but can't due to this awesome 5 rangers. Dude, after 3 or 4 episodes, it will be redundant and boring. Yet children still watch it time and time again.

Next on the list for these kind of shows will be my friend's favourite. Ultraman. OK. I do not know much about this series. The only thing I know about it is some robot will need to fight against some monster from another dimension or such.

they say that the mother of success is failure...

but also due to failure and crash and burns that doesnt always seem possible for people to succeed.... people fail to realise that due to reputation and stress their failure is well juz failure.... they cant pick themselves up after a horendous episode... why do you think there is a suiside rate? because people succeed? no... because peple fail... ... Read moreand failure is a part of life.... yet its so ironic to be called that its well part of success too...even successful business man suiside..... y its coz of their failure.... therefore, if you are not willing to fail do not even try..... trying and learning from mistakes however is the mother of success... be it from life experience... aka failure or other peoples failure.... aka stories on life.... y am i thinking abt this? i'm not studying philosophy... gee brain... i think you think too much.... or is that retorical?

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Its oficial! I suck at chess and I'm not proud of it. I have been falling for tricks which I could see through at a point. Fell for the 4 step checkmate at a point. Don't remember how to counter a simple trap and above all I lost about a year of practise, all went down in the drain despite playing constantly for a while.

Now I'll relate this to a diffeerent aspect. In life, even when you feel you're on top you can feel that in a single moment you'll come crashing. Sometimes, you won't even realise it. I only realise I crashed at the end of this year. But then again, its human to crash but at the same time, a loser stays down a winner picks himself up despite the amount of setbacks and learn the ropes all over again and vow to be better.

Isn't that how we were meant to be to in our christian life? Backsliding isn't a one time hit asteroid falling from the earth. It's a gradual thing; like erosion of rocks. It just erodes slowly; after time. Realization is the first step. Taking action the second.

Dude get a grip!

I realized recently I have been complaining. All the small things in life I have been complaining. I wish I could stop complaining; but on the other hand it's almost human to complain. Complaining by far after much thought and consideration is considered as cowardly. They do not wish to go through changes or to suffer.

poems about worry

as I was looking
as I was finding
as I was waiting
as I was searching
all I could find
was a part of myself
that didnt even know existed
yet I looked at thyself
And asked.....
Where am I God? What do I seek? I don't even know... (sigh I wish I knew)

As i am reaching for the light,
That seemed so bright,
A cloud came along bit by bit ,
Engulfing it...... so close yet so far

As I laid in the dark
In a really empty park
wating for kindness
wating for a helping hand
to bring me out of misery
all I could see was a man
walking straight to me
looking straight into my eyes
observing that pleading look
like reading a book
yet he turned away
and merely laughed
all the way

yet I did not curse
I did not scream in anger
I did not punish those insolent fools
who was unaware of what they did
that was the patience I had
that was the forgiveness I had
that was the love I had taught
if only.......

____________________________________________________________________
As I looked around
all I saw was misery
nothing else to be found
It was no fantasy

Sigh

I miss jb nuff said

If only.....

Its a new beginning.
It's been a while since I updated this. I can't be bothered at times.
I wonder sometimes about several things;
A) Who are we perceived in life?
B) Am I significant in life?
C) If I could turn back time what would I change?
D) What would happen if I had a girlfriend?

Everyone thinks they're significant in some way, some more significant than others. I don't deem myslef significant but if that was the case I won't be living now will I?
Who are we? We are nobodies in life. A fly on the wall. A fly who just zooms in and out, whenever we need people or are needed our time to shine comes if not we just will be there for the time being.
Life is simple. It shouldn't be complicated. I have but no regrets. I won't change my course of life for anything. Why change anything though? You learn trough mistakes and eventually grow.
What would happen if I had a girlfriend? That I do not know. I dream to know but I know its quite impropable.

May the force be with you

From wtiting my own novel to writing my own blog to something even more. Wow .... so cool.
I wonder where to start.
I had a great week. So good, I don't even know where to start.
But I'll leave it here; and perhaps the one thing that hits me is that its time to leave the old and start the new.

Patience

Patience is virtue. I just learnt that.
Patience can make the hardest things easy and the easy things simpler. Patience is so important in life, yet no one has it, every one needs it. I need it. Patience can makes every thing that seems so distant merely a reach away and everything a reach away next to you.

I am a chess player, still playing still learning. For a year or so, I have been playing. I have been playing with a target that seemed so distant. Yet after a long while this target seemed nothing to me. So all one needs is patience, and one shall be rewarded.

Superman

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home
I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it's not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...
Its not easy to be me

Doesn't every one feel like that sometime in their life? Feeling off. "Its never easy to be who you want to be." You can see that you've searched a long time, finding an answer, but the answer sometimes is just in front of you. You just need to dig it up and open your eyes. Even the best fall. So whoever that you thought may be great may not be the case. It's not easy. It really isn't but if you look hard enough, you'll get there. If you feel like giving up don't. Sometimes, breaktroughs happen at the brink of giving up.

Wow

Today : I was helping out the kids in church. It was cool. I learnt a few things. Faith like a child. Faith is sometimes all you need. Faith is what enables you to do the impossible, to make the impossible possible. That's all you need. Today I read the simplest verse ever. Psalm 117:1-2. Praise God for He is faithful and at the same time loving. A love that is like no other.
A love that you know when you are bad, good, disobedient or obedient. Some how or another we ain't perfect. We need guidance.

Today: The pastor's wife asked who needed prayer? And the pastor put his hand up. The pastor. I always thought that the pastor was close to good or even perfect. How wrong I was, seems like every one, no matter how old, young, secure you are, you need a prayer at times.

-read-

Reading between the lines.
What can I say about reading between lines? Analysis, analysis and more analysis. Everything may not go how you hope it planned, but then again, it does fall into place naturally most of the time right? Sometimes patience is all that is needed and at times all that is needed is well that. I am not one to practice patience either to begin with; but I feel that I really need it desperately.

Patience is virtue. How true is that?

So free

It's ironic. Sometimes people have all the time in the world, yet people say busy. Busy cannot do this, busy cannot do that, busy cannot do something or another.

Yet everyone is given what, 24 hours a day. lets break down the 24 hours given.

8 hours of sleep
8 hours in university
8 hours of your leisure time

This is a rough estimate. Preparing food is sometimes depending on the person. During weekends you clean the house and its like what, an hour to 2 hours. You don't go to university or to work on weekends or even if you do, it's just half a day. So thst gives you a lot of time to do revision and do whatever you want. Sometimes, in christian life, we need something called discipline. I am not one of that calibre. I am still searching for that. Time just pass by in a flash. Its so quick that you don't realise it half the time. 24 hours is usually more than enough. All you need is something called discipline and something called perseverance. Perseverance so that you will continue to be disciplined and not disciplined one day and not another. Cheers.

The Dream part 2

I am currently continuing from the post of (Tuesday, June 16, 2009) entitled "Let me tell you a story....." That was just an prolouge.

I was on my way to school, expecting it to be a normal day, or was it? Only time would tell.
Out from nowhere, a man appeared with a gun pointing at me. "How could this happen?" I wondered to myself. What was the meaning of this? Why was this happening to me? I said a silent prayer, shutting my eyes. Next thing I know, a gun shot. "Weird," I thought to myself, there wasn't peircing pain surging through my body. I opened my eyes and the next thing I saw was a pool of blood. Fresh blood and a body. I looked at the body properly and realised it was the man who attacked me. He was unconcious, losing a lot of blood. Someone had seen the commotion, perhaps a plain clothes policeman and had shot him on the leg, critically wounding him.

I was terrified, unsure of what to do......
I was stunned for a moment.....

End of chapter 2....

Part 3, In school....

What would you do? Would you
A) bring him to the hospital?
B) don't bother about him?

I know what Jesus would do though. After Peter sliced off the ear of those who had persecuted him, He still had mercy to heal it. How great is that? Sometimes those who are persecuted wrongly, when still showing mercy and kindness, they will be remembered eternally. Those who have wrongly persecuted you will be judged. For you have done no sin, and is rightous, I will reward you.

Return of a University student

Its monday. Return to my university, after 3 weeks of break. Whats new? I don't know. I am really looking forward to what is in store for me this time round.

I feel that this term will be the start of somethng new and exciting. Its time to let go of the past and take heed of something new. That's how I should walk in christ. With faith and hand in hand. If God told me, you there walk on water and I managed to reach 10 m out of a distinct 80m, why can't I cover the next 80 m or so? I am not going to look at the ocean and say "WHAT?? Its all water. What if sharks come? What if I drown? 10m is done. An eight of the journey is complete. Why can't I complete the rest?

An Idle mind is a Devil's Workshop

This saying is so true. At times, just to kill time, my mind starts to wonder. A wondering mind at times can't be good. You start thinking of things you're not supposed to think. Sometimes I feel my relationship with God is..... how do I put it? Erm superficial. You look to Him when you're in need. When He is asking you to be with Him you go.... uh now busy la.... laterla..... when actually you got nothing else to do.

The easiest way to avoid the devil and temptation I just realise is to be closer to Him. Think about it.

Good day

HA.... what a day...
Just had a week here in Malaysia. Can't really complain much.

Met up with my fellow juniors of sunway college. It was good and nice chatting with them. Then went to see Transformers. No plot. All bang bang blast blast.
HAHA

Which makes me wonder at times, most things are overrated. University life, passing and failing an exam, getting a wife and marrying with kids. Everything is overated. I sometimes wish I could live my own life like how I want to.

So what if I fail university? I'm still not a failure am I? So what if my dream is not perfected? I'll find a way to perfect it. I can always dream can't I? I just need another road, another mountain or another river or another.....

Procrastination

I think people tend to procrastinate. I just realised this is a bad trait of mine during the holidays. There are a ton of stuff that I need to do but at the same time I not only can't be bothered but I always promise myself to do it later. Well, I would however, but if it becomes a habit, it won't be good will it?

Blessings

Sometimes blessings come in a disguise. At times, curses come during paradise. Here I am on the way to go back to Malaysia, where I call home. At times I feel I regret this decision. Nevertheless, I still return. Things always occur for a reason. I feel this is a good reason to do so. Once I am back in Malaysia, movies galore will start. I am planning to do a movie marathon; starting with some new ones that I have been dying to watch. Then I’ll probably jog. I can feel my stomach bloating already. Sigh. I guess I can’t eat that much hawker centre food in Malaysia. But then again, it’s the least of my worries. There was a saying once. Eat to live or live to eat. It’s really simple. The first statement means a person just eats so that he can survive. The second, well he is eating as much as possible. I take these kind of things for granted actually.

Holidays? What holidays??

University life has been amazing, personally. It's a huge step forward from high school. Holidays back in high school always meant fun. Nothing to do. Well not now. There are lot's to do actually especially once you've finished your university degree. Finding a job for instance. Gone are the days that your parents look after you. It's vice versa now.

However, there are times when all is no fun then you start apreciating frredom. You will need to manage your own time wisely. Every one has 24 hours a day. How you use that 24 hours tells you what sort of person you are.

Exam over

The first term of my university is over. Officially. Whoah. Haha . But that aside, it feels great! Here I am in Sydney, visiting my sister and going on an eating spree. Which makes me realise, things should always be done in moderaration. You eat and eat and eat until you're fat, then your heath will suffer and if you don't eat well, you'll die of starvation too.

I've been watching Chuck its pretty good but I realise sometimes if you stick your eyes on a computer screen or television too long, its going to damage your eyesight. Haha. Anyways, there's a few things I learnt here which I felt was really important. Think before you speak, think before you act. Listen. Some of the best people out there are good listeners. People sometimes don't need advise. They just need a shoulder to cry on or a wall to speak to which will react and understand their feelings. Otherwise, I'll be talking to the wall in my room whenever I have problems.

Exam period

Wah! I just finished one paper yesterday. It went pretty ok. Not too bad or good. But still I have a tendency to go "hmmm...... ". It's not good you know. What's done is done. What's over is over. Haha. I wish it was that simple. I wonder what Noah is thinking about when God told him to make a boat as He is about to wipe out earth. Why? Next thing you know.... whoosh... gone in the wind....

Just because some people were wicked. I think theres two faces to this story.
1) Those who are wicked will pay his price nevertheless. I mean if you're blameless, He won't bring you any harm at all
2) Lean not in your understanding but trust God.

Noah built the ark nevertheless. I think people must be saying to him:

Siao ar you? Build boat for what? No cloud in the sky, no rain all sun. Ini orang sudah gila di la.
Next thing you know, gone. And could you imagine in the ark? Lions and tigers, snakes and goodness knows what other creatures. Sure attack you one for 150 days. But for some reason that didn't happen.

Let's take a look at another scripture.

Daniel 6: 21-21
Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."

Trust is all God asks for. Innocent in God's sight and always walk in faith with Him.

I'll be there for you

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year
but..I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst
I'm best with you, yeah
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,or even your year...
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I like this song. It shows that even in the worst situation, there will be someone there for you. I'm sure that everyone will love that. Imagine you've screwed things up so badly that you need someone to cheer you up. Look, It doesn't matter if you screwed up before, as long as you learn form your mistake and don't do it again.

:P Look. No one is perfect, we need someone to hold on to in order to survive or even to get where we want to be. Here's the bombshell;

DO YOU HAVE THAT SOMEONE WHO WILL BE WITH YOU 24/7? BEST FRIENDS CAN'T DO THAT. THEY HAVE A LIFE TOO YOU KNOW. AND THEY MIGHT NOT HAVE EXPERIENCED WHAT YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED.

Let me tell you a story.....

Every story has a beginning. Every story has a plot. Every story has a theme. Every story has an ending. Every story has its own morale values. Every story has an ending how bitter or sweet it may be. A journey of a thousand steps begins with a single one.

Its too late to turn back now. The storm is raging. It's now or never. Sometimes I wish I'd die in my sleep. Sometimes, I wish I had a portal and transport myself from where I am to somewhere else. Sometimes, I wish someone was out there guiding me and looking after me. Sometimes I just wished that I wouldn't need to endure this. Sometimes, I wished that the more I try the more I have confidence. Sometimes......

I woke up with sweat all over, breathing heavily. I'm alive. I thought back of that terrifying dream I had the night before. Devoured by some unknown creature. I do not remember the details, but still I felt that it seemed so realistic and at the same time terrifying. It was not a very good feeling. Still live goes on. No matter what I had just experienced. Getting ready for school, I dreaded the inevitable. Anything could happen after all. My fears heightened since that dream. What did it mean? What was going to happen?

The Dream... part 1

How Ironic

I find it very ironic. Tabloids, tales, rumours. 3 things that people actually read and follow. It may not even be true. Look if I just said to my friend that Liverpool was on the brink to bankruptcy and its on the tabloids, everyone would believe it. Even if it was not the case. UNFORTUNTELY! So its a lie. All lies, unfortuately.

People are so keen in hearing about all this. On the other hand, in the bible there's this verse that I stumbled upon. Ok fine I searched it up.

Psalm 119:89
Your word, O LORD, is eternal;
it stands firm in the heavens.

Yet there are non believers out there some where.


No I am not looking into evangalism missionary or anything of that sort at this point in time. I am too young and need more guidance from THE ONE. (not Jet Li or Neo if you're thinking)

Eternal. What does that mean? Forever and for eternity. Isn't that truth enough? Truth. Something that news and tabloids hide. :D

Isn't that enough to stand firm on what is written in the bible?
Enough to go "wow".
This is true. Forget about the tabloids, forget about whatever that's happening in Hollywood that are fake or even the football transfer market that some deals just aren't meant to be. (sigh.... I wish it were though....)

On the other hand concentrate on other stuff that is more concrete. Ie your life or your walk with God.

There's a song in particular I want to insert.

VERSE I
Standing here, in Your presence
Thinking of the good things
You have done
Waiting here, patiently
Just to hear
Your still small voice again
Holy, righteous, faithful to the end
Saviour, healer, redeemer and friend

CHORUS
I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are
Jesus

BRIDGE
My soul secure,
Your promise sure
Your love endures always
My soul secure, Your promise sure
Your love endures always
My soul secure, Your promise sure
Your love endures always

Just look back at this song.

Waiting here, patiently
Just to hear
Your still small voice again.

That's how desperate you should be. Too bad the world isn't like this. Patiently. How long is it? Years? It doesn't matter kid.

ITS THE CLIMB................
AIN'T ABOUT HOW FAST I GET THERE......

:D

Your promise sure
Your love endures always.

I know there will be rough patches at times, but seriously so what? Clay is so ugly. A pot on the other hand... hmmm.... nice and beautiful right. What does a clay go trough to go into that stance?

Aiya... y la like that

Aiseh man! Next Saturday my exam start di loh. I preparing now but I think I really need more faith and courage to take the plunge. Forgive me O Lord if I fail my exams; as I have forgiven those who have trialed against me.

Forgive. Such a humongous word. Like normal. Another huge word to think about. Forgoiving is not easy at times, but it's neccessary. I think the hardest part for me is to forgive myself la, but I'd rather not ellaborate. WHO ARE YOU NOT TO FORGIVE YOUR OWN SINS IF THE LORD HAS CHOSEN TO FORGIVE YOURS? ARE YOU MIGHTIER THAN GOD HIMSELF?

I have sinned O Lord.
I know.
Aren't you going to punish me?
Do I have to? Isn't death punishment enough?
......... I don't think so. Everyone dies anyway...
Then why did Jesus die on the cross?
For enactment over my SINS?
Yes my child. What more?
So that I can have eternal life and be by your side?
.......... What have I done to deserve this?
NOTHING..... I am a GOD who GIVES. The DEVIL steals takes and murders.

There's another thing interesting... what is normal ?
(conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural) According to the dictionary.

So how do you define normal? Opposite from weird? So if a person who weilds a sword run around amok is it normal? Its not common thats for sure. But to the other person is it common? It may be to him. Look, in life there are no wrong or right. There are always choices to make. Its whether you have picked the right one. There's a saying once. You sleep on your own bed. Or is it you sleep on the bed that you made? I don't know for sure.... hahah

taking the plunge

Who is this player called Cristiano Ronaldo? Or this Brazilian player called Kaka?
These 2 players that have dominated the headlines in the world of soccer. These are two players who have about to join Real Madrid for an astonishing fee of 80 million and 65 million respectively. These are two mega superstars that have taken the plunge and tried their best; blasted by the media at times and finally managed to secure a big money move. What am I trying to say? Well isn't that what happens most of the time anyway?

Day after day facing troubles after troubles. Yet what happens if you give up halfway? What do you think would happen if these 2 footballers just gave up and left the world game? Sit down and ponder on this.

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Deuteronomy 31:8

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

So all you need is faith and courage right. If God is with you who can be against you?

Remember Moses. I will never forget that man. A person who has nothing but faith. He was to free the Isrealites from the people of Egypt. Egypt, so geng. What is he thinking la wei? I can almost imagine his conversation with God right now....

Moses: You want me to go to Egypt to free Your people? You crazy di ar?
God: I will be with you
Moses: I die how?
God: I will be with you.
Moses: I dunno anything. NO NO Nothing at all.
God: I will be with you.
Moses: If I fail how?
God: I will be with you la how to fail?
Moses: If people ask who are you what you want me to answer?
God: I am God lo... What else ar? The God of Abraham. My name will be remembered forever. (eternity and longer)
Moses: Are you sure?
God: Ya
Moses: Sure or not?
God: Ya. You gimme your rod. I change it to a snake
Moses: Sure or not? Ok

God changes it to a snake

Moses: Wah God you so yeng ar? But I so stupid. Go send oth......
God: I say go means go di la. Go go go. Before I really kill you.
Moses: Ok Ok. I go. I go. But you wih me ya. Or else mati lar me.

Well Moses did manage to lead the Isrealites out of Egpyt and found favor in God. So what am I trying to say? I DUNNO....

1 week to go and counting

This is it isn't it. You're in the battle field with just one bullet. Its now or never. Take aim, fire and hit the target. Sounds easy right? Your enemy? About the same scenario. One bullet left in this battle field.

As always in sports, be it chess, soccer or footy, its always the end game that counts. The trials are just there to prepare you for it. Its usually the final score that counts. In chess, you can have a material and position disadvantage but plan such a way that you checkmate your opponent. Look that's life. When the going gets tough, buckle up, suck it in and keep going.

There will be times in life you feel like giving up, times that youjust feel like its over, times when you feel that gone case, time that you feel every thing you do will be wrong, so wrong and no point any more.

I remember my lecturer saying this to me. What's the worst that could happen? I thought for a minute and went.... death?? His answer? Plain and simple. Well yeah but then again you won't die if you fail right? Its not the end of the world right? And sometimes looking bak pass the final exam, try your hardest and who knows you may pass it. :P

The best things in life at times is not the destination; end result. It is the journey. Learning everytime, getting new experiences.

Sigh

FAIL!!!

Ah well it sometimes is inevitable right? In this world there are 2 different kinds of people. Optimist and pesimist. If someone gave you a glass thats half filled whats the first response?

a) It is half full
b) It is half empty

Sometimes in life its so much easier to be pessimistic.
Grumble Grumble Grumble..... sigh sigh sigh........ die die die
Life goes on, fail fail la. What attitude is this? Pessimistic or optimist?
Now let's put it in a different perspective.

Ok I failed my exam. What now? Considering my options to retake or go to another university or to try harder or swap courses. Look, its all in the mind. A chess player once said, the moment you think you are going to lose a chess game the battle is already half lost.

What makes Kasparov, Fisher, and other chess players great? Not only chess; other sport. Mentality. Winning attitude.

If you lost that you're a goner. Chin up. Downplay a loss. Shake off the disapointment and go on.
Look at Liverpool. If it's one thing I salute them for it has to be their mentality. 3-0 down against AC Milan. Champions League final. Second half, brilliant game 3-3 won it on penalties. Year after year lost the Premiership title to Manchester United, year after year saying that next season they will win it. Still waiting though. Sad story!

I know it can be hard. But sometimes, somethings can't be accomplished, but that doesn't mean it's either

a) end of the world
b) you're branded a failure

The possibilities out there are massive. If you can't do something, that doesnt mean you're not good in anything.

:P

3 am

Exodus 15:2

The LORD is my strength and my song;
he has become my salvation.
He is my God, and I will praise him,
my father's God, and I will exalt him.

It's 3 am right now. I just can't really sleep; well probably cause I slept at 8 pm just now till 12. :D

But that's besides the case. I need strength. Every one needs it. Imagine going through day by day feeling weak and helpless. Well, it sucks. I have tried. Trust me, it sucks. You can't think, you can't act, you can't do anything. All your mind says to you is "sleep". I NEED SLEEP! It almost screams at you. Or is it the body? Hmmmm.....

I don't know about you, but I sometimes feel that God is like that at times. He is my strength. He is my provider. Imagine a pillar without foundation. It'll fall right?

I don't really want to elaborate too much today (I got work to do.... calculus.... :P I'm still happy though)

I end with a simple verse of a simple song...

Give thanks with a greatful heart
Give thanks to the holy one
Give thanks for He has given
Jesus Christ His son
Now, LET THE WEAK SAY I AM STRONG
Let the poor say I am rich
Give thanks.

Oh yeah speaking of giving thanks, I remember my pastor preaching. I don't really remember the details bt the picture was evident and a very good ilustraton.

ALL YOU NEED IS FAITH AND THANKS GIVING. THE BATTLE IS WON BY JESUS! IT IS FINSHED.
DEVIL 0 - GOD 500. ITS A TRASHING. ALL YOU NEED IS THANKSGIVING AND PRAISE. WHAT MORE DOES HE WANT? MOSES WAS NOT CHOSEN TO LEAD HIS PEOPLE BECAUSE HE IS SMART. HE IS CHOSEN AS HE IS FAITHFUL.

On other news,............................

The Fray You Found Me

I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where've you been?"
He said, "Ask anything.
"Where were you, when everything was falling apart.
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor,
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait, to find me, to find me?

Meaning according to the lead of the band?

"You Found Me" is a tough song for me. Its about the disappointment, the heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you're let down, sometimes you're the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and Im still right in the thick of it. There's some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest.

So, what am I trying to say? Think Abraham. Look at the stars, you will have that many decendnts and more. He's old. And if you think of natural things around you, it's never going to be possible. Now what did Abraham say and cling on? You decide.

Pre Exam pressure

I feel so down and out for some reason. Its 2 weeks to my exam and I know I can pull this through. I just don't have the spirit to continue. Isn't that what a lot of people thinks and then they don't study and the final exam comes..... deng deng deng deng...... a big F.
Are you one of them? Thankfully I try to avoid this situation.

WHY?? Did you put in a lot of effort? Well maybe. Did you try your best? Obviously yes. Then why falter? Clear cut. Its either a pass or a fail. Nothing in between. If you miss out by a few marks its still a fail right?

A freind, mentor, guide, junior, student once told me this.......... its either white or black. Nothing in between. I know, pressure is bound to increase as time goes by. PV / T is a constant. V volume of things you need to study is the same. Time is less. So pressure increase lo.

But so what? If you have done your revision and did your best, hope for the best, fingers crossed, you will achive it right? Every thing needs time practice and above all a heart that says yes I will do it, yes I will try my best, yes, I can suceed one day. Its not about how you get there. Its about the journey being there.

Everything in this world is like that la. Live with it. Playing computer games, chess, maths, medicine, A - levels you name it. All we need is time and also practice. Lots of practice. And also, some people can't do things better than others. Ask a hawker centre orang to do medicine. Go run a clinic. Cannot right. Now ask a doctor to cook for you char kuay teow or hokien mee. If he can replicate the chef at the hawker centre kuddos wei!

The future is unknown but yet certain

Matthew 6

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Yet people worry about everything they can think of. The future is unpredictable. Worrying about a lot of things; going through trials slowly one by one with nothing but despair. I don't know about you but I seriously wonder what Job must be thinking of at this moment in time when facing these obstacles.

Naked I come to this world
Naked I leave it.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
May the name of the LORD be praised."

None of this is mine, but it is the Lord who provides for me. Yet, while he is being cursed and trialed day by day, not once did he strike the lord or wronged Him. Looking back, I can't say that I have never wronged the Lord. Neither can I say that I have walked in faith with him. There have been times I am so frustrated I just left Him. But yet like the shepard he leaves all His other sheep and finds the one thats lost.

I know the future is unpredictable but its not uncertain.

I just leave one last message....
We love Him cause He loved us first.

Gambit

I hate gambit games personally. Sacrificing a peice for an advantage usually later in the game. Usually, pawn are sacrificed.
But deal with it, that's life now. Sacrificing your time and effort in your workplace in exchange for $$. You get the gist. Sacrifices to me is pretty normal in our lives. giving up sleep to study for a major exam. Staying up late to complete an assignment that is due. (though why leave it to the last minute?)That's part and parcel of living.

So, if you're hating your life right now just because you're suffering something that may be trivial, don't! Life is worth living right? Life is also too short for self pity and sometimes things may not be what it seems. Think about it.

Chinese Remainder Therom

I know, the name of the post sounds really weird but trust me, its the best I can think of. Today, I was in my math modelling class. What an interesting subject, math modeling. My lecturer was going on about the chinese remainder theorem on how with just one formulae, you can solve any equation, be it 3 different unknowns, 4 different unknowns and so on. What struck me was that one simple careless mistake could make the entire math problem go haywire. That's the one thing i hate about maths. Simple to apply at times, horrible to do at times. Imagine your soccer team being in a yo - yo form. One day playing marvelously, pure attacking football and giving opposing strikers hell at the back. The next match, woeful, trashed 6-0. Rubbish, absolute rubbish. That I feel is probably what maths like. Simplex method ah so nice to use. Its interesting but try doing it with numbers as big as a T-rex. (3 digits and more) You'd probably cry out of frustration and your mind will beg you to stop thinking. Clear minds are always good for maths. Always.

Imagine this question for the Chinese Remainder Theorem

X - 3 (mod4)
X - 4 (mod 5)
X - 7 (mod 3)
X - 2 (mod 7)

How do you solve that? Go figure. And mind you, this is how to decode mesages, well except that the prime numbers are huge, and when i mean huge i really do mean huge. 101 and above!!!


Heres another one for the weary minds. Am I evil or what?

Maximise
5 x + 3y with regards to

2 x + y <= 0
4 x + 6y <= 0
3x + y <= 0
x + 7y <= 0

Haha, signing off.

ps:
The numbers I made them up, not some random book I borrowed from the library or lecture notes.

www..... wide wonderful world

What is education? Is it obtaining a degree and then just stoping there ? Or is it more? Is it learning new things that are applicable in your life? Is it the approach of life? Is it the journey to adapt a new environment? Is it trying something new, falling down and trying again at a different perspective? Is it trying something new, failing, getting up and try again with the same diversity and method? Or is it just something that is required and needed drilled into your mind by your parents snce young?

Well to me, its probably all the above but the first 2 and the last. Education is learning things that are applicable in your life. Well, first and foremost, you don't learn to cry, but you certainly learn to walk. First, you probably would have crawled. I do not think anybody, no not even superman or any other comic hero walk straight away. Walking. Something so simple, but yet, we need to start somewhere right? Well the best answer would probably be in our house. Then u started to eat. Well now that you are a grown up, you probably do not need your parents or someone older to spoonfeed you right? You can do it yourself, just nible bite and finally swallow. Easy right? Applicable? Well, what do you think?

Second question, is it the approach to life? Every one in the world has a sole purpose. Theres a phrase in the bible, again I do not know word for word or where is it but it goes like this, before you were born, I know the path you are going to take. I know what is it tht you are asking for even before you speak. How awesome is that? Well what's the next step I wonder? Well easy, moulding us to be who we are to be in this society. Different people have different strengths. Otherwise I wonder what this world will be like. Hang on, I can't even imagine. SORRY. a whole world full of mathematicians and chessmasters. How redundant?

A journey to adapt a different environment. Well, I think the statement speaks for itself. Usually, people will be lambasted with obstacles. Well too bad. DEAL WITH IT! This world can never be perfect. No one can be perfect. If we all are, we wouldn't need to go through question 1 and 2. We are perfect as to what the lord God sees us to be. Again how awesome is that? We are not perfect by nature. Come on, be truthful to me, how many times have you lied in your life? I know I for one though I try my hardest not to I have let my tongue slip at least once. Sinful creatures, yet forgiven. Jesus died on that cross for a reason. But i'm not talking on that in much detail but rather to reaffirm that he died for our sins. So how perfect are we? So anyway, its like you go on to a journey like any other RPG (insert final fantasy tune). Then you just have to adapt a new environment, be it a new area in order to defeat some unknown enemy or for the greater good or juz to save the world. Ok this is starting to get weird. Just super duper weird. Sorry.

On to the last 2 questions that I am going to write on hand to hand on. FAIL. The one word that people fear. What is the mother of success? Pass? Perfect? NO! It's failure. People fail. Its normal. Look at Thomas Edison sure he passed. He made a light bulb. He is remembered for that. But what makes him special? I don't know about you, but I think what makes him special is the fact that he failed 1000 times before he made a light bulb. How would you feel if you failed a thousand times? Personally, I'd probably abandon my plan. But no thats not what Thomas Edison did. He did it again and again till he found a way. If theres a will theres a way right? So, whether you do it with method A or method B it doesn't really matter as long as you have learnt your past mistakes and lived with it. No one's going to remember the fact that you failed. If you failed you failed. There's nothing to be ashamed of. Just remember this name. Drum rolls please!!!!!! THOMAS EDISON. What does this has to do with my topic you may ask? Well it just shows that learning from your past mistakes is important.

So I will just conclude here. What is education? I'll just make a small list so that it is easy to remember.

a) learning new things applicable in life
b) approach of life
c) adapting a new environment
d) to get up and move on when you fail

Its a journey. Education never stops. The amount of knowledge is probably negligable to what you learn over your life. But if you are really interested in something, go ahead, learn it up. It may not be useful but above all, it may be fun and enjoyable.

Amination anyone? Or even better script writing. Or song writing? Or ........ the possibilities humongous.... Just believe in yourself and above all, walk with the lord rather than the wrold. Who knows? He may grant you what you want, parralel with what He wants and above all, happinees.

I leave here for today with a song.
Miley cyrus ( The climb)

I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming but

There's a voice inside my head sayin,

You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking but I

Got to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going

And I,

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It's all about

It's all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

kid again

I feel like a kid sometimes. Sometimes, you just feel like letting go all your frustrations in life. The whole world is around you is either falling apart or against you. Then you look at kids. All carefree, no worries, nothing nothing at all that bothers them. (no pok no pok at all) All they do, is probably being who they are and at the same time being carefree.

Sometimes, I just wished that I could be like that. No worries in the world. Everything provided to a certin extent. All you need is a mouth to ask for, and it will be given. I guess at times life can be like that, especially when you just be yourself and that you're not really harming the society or yourself I guess it should all come together.

Saturday and Sunday mornings are great. They are always stress relievers to me. Who would have imagined a university student to actually sit down and have a good laugh when I start watching kid shows such as Hannah Montana or even Wolverine and the X men? Well, welcome to my life!! Accept me for who I am. I am so looking forward to the movie premiere of Hannah Montana which is scheduled to be released around the end of June. I know most people will probably say that Hannah Montana is for teenage girls or even 6 year old girls? But if I am having a good laugh and entertained by the show so be it. I am not a fanatic though, just find it interesting. (The Ben Ten cartoons are good too. But I haven't actually had time to watch Ben Ten Alien Force, the sequel to the Ben Ten cartoons. That looks really cool. I will someday. Eventually. :P)

Thankfully, the bible did mentioned on being carefree and at the same time being like a child. Children of God, isn't that how he adress us? He who seeks receives and also, which father will give his son a stone when he asks for bread?

I'm going to sign off with a saying by me. "If everyone was the same in life, the world would not only be boring but redundant as well" So be who you want to be and as the ausies say it, NO WORRIES MATE!!!

sine graphs..... go figure

Oh boy, what a week!

First, Manchester United gets knocked out by Lionel Messi and co(aka Barcalona) in the finals and then my housemate just had to rub it in my face all day long, or almost all day long. Why u may ask? How would I know? Jealousy?

Then, I have a slight feeling that programming in java is a gonner, or in Arsenal terms, gooner. Its not going to be even applicable in my life. Whats the point of learning something that you're going to apply and even worse, you have no interest in? I call it waste of time. :P

I do not think that using a java program just to find the average amount of sales production is justified. There's a calculator to do it. Whats more, use matlab so much easier. Matlab. Though its tough at first, when you really know how to use it from your fingertips, it can actually be fun. I find it fascinating when the lecturer just plunges in the digits and out from the blue some graph that I didnt know could exist be plotted just like that. Amazing, truely amazing. If only I can master it. Sigh.

I hope I am not branded a "weirdo" for that.

y m i doing this??

Why am I even blogging???
Who would be interested in the life and times of a university student?
I am not here to tell people about my life and times, even if you want to.
My main reason I feel would probably to improve my typing and at the same time put down anything that I just conjured out of thin air which is most likely to disapear into thin air the next day, hour, week , month or year.
So, don't be surprised to see my study notes here in near future!
How ironic you may ask?
Well this blog unfortunately is on my thoughts rather than my life.
Feel free to read though I will try my very best to make it as interesting as possible, but it just won't happen. trust me.