poems about worry

as I was looking
as I was finding
as I was waiting
as I was searching
all I could find
was a part of myself
that didnt even know existed
yet I looked at thyself
And asked.....
Where am I God? What do I seek? I don't even know... (sigh I wish I knew)

As i am reaching for the light,
That seemed so bright,
A cloud came along bit by bit ,
Engulfing it...... so close yet so far

As I laid in the dark
In a really empty park
wating for kindness
wating for a helping hand
to bring me out of misery
all I could see was a man
walking straight to me
looking straight into my eyes
observing that pleading look
like reading a book
yet he turned away
and merely laughed
all the way

yet I did not curse
I did not scream in anger
I did not punish those insolent fools
who was unaware of what they did
that was the patience I had
that was the forgiveness I had
that was the love I had taught
if only.......

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As I looked around
all I saw was misery
nothing else to be found
It was no fantasy

Sigh

I miss jb nuff said