Oh well

2nd post in 2010...
I can feel my blog needing some fresh air....
I'm bored so I come here a while....
SIGH

Life is like......
A box of choclates.....
A rolercoaster ride....
A novel you can never erase...

I guess that's why life is worth living....

You look at your ups and laugh then you look at your downs and go... hmm....

Sometimes I feel really like wrong... every one has 24 hours... how we spend them tells us who we are... I feel like i'm not maximising this...

God.... I say a simple prayer... tell me off if I am at the wrong track :P :)

So its the new yr... first post....
I got nth to write on..... hahah
anyway that aside...... i was reading the newspaper on several things that i thought would be interesting ..... national news and sport news

1) churches bombed in Malaysia for using the word Allah.... ok...... so what is that all about? 1 Malaysia sure anot?
2) Some EPL clubs I just realized have sold their soul and heritage to businessman who know nothing about the game..... don don don
3) FA cup???? whats that again??

kids shows (back in the day) part 1

Just as Steven Gerrard, Anfield and The Kop is to Liverpool, or even Highbury and Arsene is to Arsenal, tv shows have by far blended into our lives quite nicely just as we were kids. Every Saturday morning or even Sunday morning after church there has to be a tv show or even animated series that seems so real in our lives; especially when we were much younger. Let's take a look at some of these television shows, cartoon series, manga and what not.

First and foremost, who could forget Pokemon and perhaps the face of this Japanese cartoon, almost goes hand in hand to it; the yellow rodent called Pikachu. Over the years, spin offs of animated series and games ranging from the Game Boy handheld all the way to the Nintedo DS which is hot and popular currently. However, no Pokemon series seems to be complete without its main character, Pikachu. It just doesn't feel right. :P

Next as we roll back the years, we see another spin off that was not as popular as Pokemon but popular amongst children as well. We have Digimon. Who could forget these digital monsters that could "Digivolve" anytime they want. Sure there have been a few games based on the series but I don't think it's as popular as Pokemon.

Next on the list is none other than Power Rangers. The story line feels so cliche. Redundant, I don't mind adding. Yet, theres about 10 different seasons in total; (Maybe more) ranging from Power Rangers time, Lost in space and Mystic Force. All of the series have one thing in common. Some bad guy wants to destroy the world, but can't due to this awesome 5 rangers. Dude, after 3 or 4 episodes, it will be redundant and boring. Yet children still watch it time and time again.

Next on the list for these kind of shows will be my friend's favourite. Ultraman. OK. I do not know much about this series. The only thing I know about it is some robot will need to fight against some monster from another dimension or such.

they say that the mother of success is failure...

but also due to failure and crash and burns that doesnt always seem possible for people to succeed.... people fail to realise that due to reputation and stress their failure is well juz failure.... they cant pick themselves up after a horendous episode... why do you think there is a suiside rate? because people succeed? no... because peple fail... ... Read moreand failure is a part of life.... yet its so ironic to be called that its well part of success too...even successful business man suiside..... y its coz of their failure.... therefore, if you are not willing to fail do not even try..... trying and learning from mistakes however is the mother of success... be it from life experience... aka failure or other peoples failure.... aka stories on life.... y am i thinking abt this? i'm not studying philosophy... gee brain... i think you think too much.... or is that retorical?

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Its oficial! I suck at chess and I'm not proud of it. I have been falling for tricks which I could see through at a point. Fell for the 4 step checkmate at a point. Don't remember how to counter a simple trap and above all I lost about a year of practise, all went down in the drain despite playing constantly for a while.

Now I'll relate this to a diffeerent aspect. In life, even when you feel you're on top you can feel that in a single moment you'll come crashing. Sometimes, you won't even realise it. I only realise I crashed at the end of this year. But then again, its human to crash but at the same time, a loser stays down a winner picks himself up despite the amount of setbacks and learn the ropes all over again and vow to be better.

Isn't that how we were meant to be to in our christian life? Backsliding isn't a one time hit asteroid falling from the earth. It's a gradual thing; like erosion of rocks. It just erodes slowly; after time. Realization is the first step. Taking action the second.

Dude get a grip!

I realized recently I have been complaining. All the small things in life I have been complaining. I wish I could stop complaining; but on the other hand it's almost human to complain. Complaining by far after much thought and consideration is considered as cowardly. They do not wish to go through changes or to suffer.

poems about worry

as I was looking
as I was finding
as I was waiting
as I was searching
all I could find
was a part of myself
that didnt even know existed
yet I looked at thyself
And asked.....
Where am I God? What do I seek? I don't even know... (sigh I wish I knew)

As i am reaching for the light,
That seemed so bright,
A cloud came along bit by bit ,
Engulfing it...... so close yet so far

As I laid in the dark
In a really empty park
wating for kindness
wating for a helping hand
to bring me out of misery
all I could see was a man
walking straight to me
looking straight into my eyes
observing that pleading look
like reading a book
yet he turned away
and merely laughed
all the way

yet I did not curse
I did not scream in anger
I did not punish those insolent fools
who was unaware of what they did
that was the patience I had
that was the forgiveness I had
that was the love I had taught
if only.......

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As I looked around
all I saw was misery
nothing else to be found
It was no fantasy

Sigh

I miss jb nuff said

If only.....

Its a new beginning.
It's been a while since I updated this. I can't be bothered at times.
I wonder sometimes about several things;
A) Who are we perceived in life?
B) Am I significant in life?
C) If I could turn back time what would I change?
D) What would happen if I had a girlfriend?

Everyone thinks they're significant in some way, some more significant than others. I don't deem myslef significant but if that was the case I won't be living now will I?
Who are we? We are nobodies in life. A fly on the wall. A fly who just zooms in and out, whenever we need people or are needed our time to shine comes if not we just will be there for the time being.
Life is simple. It shouldn't be complicated. I have but no regrets. I won't change my course of life for anything. Why change anything though? You learn trough mistakes and eventually grow.
What would happen if I had a girlfriend? That I do not know. I dream to know but I know its quite impropable.

May the force be with you

From wtiting my own novel to writing my own blog to something even more. Wow .... so cool.
I wonder where to start.
I had a great week. So good, I don't even know where to start.
But I'll leave it here; and perhaps the one thing that hits me is that its time to leave the old and start the new.

Patience

Patience is virtue. I just learnt that.
Patience can make the hardest things easy and the easy things simpler. Patience is so important in life, yet no one has it, every one needs it. I need it. Patience can makes every thing that seems so distant merely a reach away and everything a reach away next to you.

I am a chess player, still playing still learning. For a year or so, I have been playing. I have been playing with a target that seemed so distant. Yet after a long while this target seemed nothing to me. So all one needs is patience, and one shall be rewarded.

Superman

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home
I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream
I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it's not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...
Its not easy to be me

Doesn't every one feel like that sometime in their life? Feeling off. "Its never easy to be who you want to be." You can see that you've searched a long time, finding an answer, but the answer sometimes is just in front of you. You just need to dig it up and open your eyes. Even the best fall. So whoever that you thought may be great may not be the case. It's not easy. It really isn't but if you look hard enough, you'll get there. If you feel like giving up don't. Sometimes, breaktroughs happen at the brink of giving up.

Wow

Today : I was helping out the kids in church. It was cool. I learnt a few things. Faith like a child. Faith is sometimes all you need. Faith is what enables you to do the impossible, to make the impossible possible. That's all you need. Today I read the simplest verse ever. Psalm 117:1-2. Praise God for He is faithful and at the same time loving. A love that is like no other.
A love that you know when you are bad, good, disobedient or obedient. Some how or another we ain't perfect. We need guidance.

Today: The pastor's wife asked who needed prayer? And the pastor put his hand up. The pastor. I always thought that the pastor was close to good or even perfect. How wrong I was, seems like every one, no matter how old, young, secure you are, you need a prayer at times.

-read-

Reading between the lines.
What can I say about reading between lines? Analysis, analysis and more analysis. Everything may not go how you hope it planned, but then again, it does fall into place naturally most of the time right? Sometimes patience is all that is needed and at times all that is needed is well that. I am not one to practice patience either to begin with; but I feel that I really need it desperately.

Patience is virtue. How true is that?

So free

It's ironic. Sometimes people have all the time in the world, yet people say busy. Busy cannot do this, busy cannot do that, busy cannot do something or another.

Yet everyone is given what, 24 hours a day. lets break down the 24 hours given.

8 hours of sleep
8 hours in university
8 hours of your leisure time

This is a rough estimate. Preparing food is sometimes depending on the person. During weekends you clean the house and its like what, an hour to 2 hours. You don't go to university or to work on weekends or even if you do, it's just half a day. So thst gives you a lot of time to do revision and do whatever you want. Sometimes, in christian life, we need something called discipline. I am not one of that calibre. I am still searching for that. Time just pass by in a flash. Its so quick that you don't realise it half the time. 24 hours is usually more than enough. All you need is something called discipline and something called perseverance. Perseverance so that you will continue to be disciplined and not disciplined one day and not another. Cheers.

The Dream part 2

I am currently continuing from the post of (Tuesday, June 16, 2009) entitled "Let me tell you a story....." That was just an prolouge.

I was on my way to school, expecting it to be a normal day, or was it? Only time would tell.
Out from nowhere, a man appeared with a gun pointing at me. "How could this happen?" I wondered to myself. What was the meaning of this? Why was this happening to me? I said a silent prayer, shutting my eyes. Next thing I know, a gun shot. "Weird," I thought to myself, there wasn't peircing pain surging through my body. I opened my eyes and the next thing I saw was a pool of blood. Fresh blood and a body. I looked at the body properly and realised it was the man who attacked me. He was unconcious, losing a lot of blood. Someone had seen the commotion, perhaps a plain clothes policeman and had shot him on the leg, critically wounding him.

I was terrified, unsure of what to do......
I was stunned for a moment.....

End of chapter 2....

Part 3, In school....

What would you do? Would you
A) bring him to the hospital?
B) don't bother about him?

I know what Jesus would do though. After Peter sliced off the ear of those who had persecuted him, He still had mercy to heal it. How great is that? Sometimes those who are persecuted wrongly, when still showing mercy and kindness, they will be remembered eternally. Those who have wrongly persecuted you will be judged. For you have done no sin, and is rightous, I will reward you.

Return of a University student

Its monday. Return to my university, after 3 weeks of break. Whats new? I don't know. I am really looking forward to what is in store for me this time round.

I feel that this term will be the start of somethng new and exciting. Its time to let go of the past and take heed of something new. That's how I should walk in christ. With faith and hand in hand. If God told me, you there walk on water and I managed to reach 10 m out of a distinct 80m, why can't I cover the next 80 m or so? I am not going to look at the ocean and say "WHAT?? Its all water. What if sharks come? What if I drown? 10m is done. An eight of the journey is complete. Why can't I complete the rest?

An Idle mind is a Devil's Workshop

This saying is so true. At times, just to kill time, my mind starts to wonder. A wondering mind at times can't be good. You start thinking of things you're not supposed to think. Sometimes I feel my relationship with God is..... how do I put it? Erm superficial. You look to Him when you're in need. When He is asking you to be with Him you go.... uh now busy la.... laterla..... when actually you got nothing else to do.

The easiest way to avoid the devil and temptation I just realise is to be closer to Him. Think about it.

Good day

HA.... what a day...
Just had a week here in Malaysia. Can't really complain much.

Met up with my fellow juniors of sunway college. It was good and nice chatting with them. Then went to see Transformers. No plot. All bang bang blast blast.
HAHA

Which makes me wonder at times, most things are overrated. University life, passing and failing an exam, getting a wife and marrying with kids. Everything is overated. I sometimes wish I could live my own life like how I want to.

So what if I fail university? I'm still not a failure am I? So what if my dream is not perfected? I'll find a way to perfect it. I can always dream can't I? I just need another road, another mountain or another river or another.....

Procrastination

I think people tend to procrastinate. I just realised this is a bad trait of mine during the holidays. There are a ton of stuff that I need to do but at the same time I not only can't be bothered but I always promise myself to do it later. Well, I would however, but if it becomes a habit, it won't be good will it?